Hello readers, (I think it's mostly my Lit teacher, but no complaints here!)
Man, I have some real things to consider! Well, OK, not really real things, like death or the meaning of life. No, I've already figured those ones out.
All I have to think about is taking my Driver's Permit Test, two of my sisters moving away -- like, a few hundred miles kind of away-- and how I will do if I tried to get a job with animals. Would I botch things by my clumsy shyness or just forget important things because I am so eager to do everything right? Would the animals sense that I'm uptight and freak on me, therefor losing me the job opportunity? *SIGH* It seems too many things could go wrong. And I am SO unprepared for taking the Driver's Permit Test. But I'm scheduled to take Driver's Ed next quarter, and that starts in a little more than a week!!! My sisters... well, one of them is always moving hundreds of miles away, so I'm not going to lose myself over her (please don't think I'm a stone-hearted person, it's just I still hardly know this sister because she moved away when I was only two years old and she hasn't stopped running from whatever it is that's after her conscience.). As for the other sister... she's been around for me my whole life, helping me laugh at myself when needed and always willing to make home-made chocolate w/ me when I was feeling down. Since she got her licence, she's been driving me and Cathy, my closest sister around the state non-stop.
When, as I've always wondered, will my life be normal again? There's always some big change taking place and I never stop changing! I'm always growing in my passion for life and love. The only way to calm my adolescent fears and convictions is to bring them to God, my papa and brother and spirit. Only He and The Blessed Mother can make me think clearly about things when I am most confused. I am relieved to know that when this is all over(after a little cleaning up first of course), all I will be doing is sitting around a huge table with all my family and friends and my Heavenly Father and Mother, and just chilling..... This is the only thing that keeps me from having tantrums and rebelling against all the human control freaks. What a glorious life after death it will be!!!
